culture

dont you think its kind of weird, that in other cultures its often rude to not accept food or gifts offered.... but in america, its often rude NOT to offer food or a gift, whether you ACTUALLY want to offer it or not? hmmm.

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Christmas Eve

A very funny joke....

Q Where would Men be without Women?

A In the Garden of Eden.

Muttered by Syd, my younger brother, in the middle of the Christmas Eve service. Ha!

read Irresistible Revolution. I havent finished it, but an incredible book. It is the story of a man who literally gives his life up. its beautiful and groundbreaking, and while for a week i thought i would be living in a monastery for the rest of my life, i realize i can be inspired but not imitate. anyways, check it out and keep thinkin about sam.

Current Status: Missing one Sam the Dog greatly

Yes I miss her....so much! As i'm sure you all do. Life goes on I suppose...? We'll see about that one. Speaking of LIFE...mine is crazy right now. Life is crazy in general.... i've just been getting the most wild news lately, specifically in the past couple of days. So many people are going through more than they've ever gone through, and despite the intensity of it all, more intense things are coming. Some of them are so good, and some of them are just really hard to accept. It's weird, but i think our dreams have a lot to do with everyone's lives right now. I dream a lot, but i rarely remember my dreams because it takes me at least 30 mins to become functional at all in the morning, and as my mind is waking up, my dreams are fading fast. I believe that dreams are actual spiritual activity....what is going on the spiritual realm, in other words. So I sleep every night, and I dream every night. And every morning I wake up with this fading sense of hyper-reality. It is the most bizarre thing, and this morning I woke up to an accompanying feeling of disappointment. That reality, the reality of the spiritual realm, is stronger than our present reality, of the physical world. And it does just that: it makes me feel REAL, and totally and completely alive. I know this has parallels with drugs and all that but that is not really what I am getting at. What I am trying to convey is a longing I don't even want to know i have sometimes. There is that CS Lewis quote about the child playing in the filthy slums and being totally comfortable, when in reality a beautiful vacation at the sea awaits him, but he remains in his filth. The nagging feeling of false comfort, a divine revelation that has not yet reached the mind, a knowledge of truth without the feelings to accompany it. I hope all of these things will catapult me into a massive search for Reality, for God, and for Hope for all of us. If this doesn't, i really don't want to wait and see what will.

Just staring at one sleeping Sam...

I'm here in Raleigh, sitting on the couch with a sleeping Sam, watching the tube. It's so good to see her! She already has gotten a little bigger from living at Grandma's house, and she's very, very happy. I miss her so much, I've been dreaming about her almost every night since I came back to Boone. It's funny that I let myself get so attached to her, but not to my own friends. I know Sam loves me as much as her little heart can... but seeing how my friends love me is, well, something I can't even LET myself think about sometimes. I have all these silly views in my head of how I think people are and what they think about me, when I'm the one who is really all those things and I'm the one thinking all those thoughts about me. So when my friends actually treat me like a person whom they care about, it kind of messes with my head a little bit. Love is very hard to accept, I am really understanding that. I heard one time that when you cry, it is the Lord cleansing your mind, washing it. That really makes a lot of sense. When a friend treats me like a FRIEND instead of a burden, and somehow that wiggles its way into my head for once, it's a lot to take in. Thank you to everyone who has done this for me, even though I'm sure you never thought twice about it.

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